~Diaries~

[melp]

It has been a while since I thought about my user name: MELP

It has a special meaning to me.

I got this username when I was a 2nd year student. Before that, I had never learn how to use internet

Until I saw Roswell

I got addicted to it since the very first episode. And in episode "Blind date", the word MRLP came to my mind.

To be exact, it appeared as ME + LP in the film. Which stands for: Max Evans love Liz Parker.

I was a dreamer. Until now I still am. And I love this couple so much - they have the best chemistry for teenage role I've ever seen.

When they first knew me, friends often asked me about the meaning of my username. Initials, I guess.

This username remind me all the time of my favourite couple.

Well, their chemistry is WAY much better than Twilight. Sorry to Twilight fans out there, cos Bella and Edward couple is so boring. Not even hold a candle to Max and Lis's love.


I wish someone will look at me the way Max looked at Liz.

[Guinevere]

I feel like I've lost you.


I came to Sydney 5 years ago with no friends at all. Everything had to start all over again. Making friends, hanging out, chatting happily, partying, sleeping over etc


It's such a devastated feeling when you realize after 5 years, there is still no one around you. Friends come and go all the time, leaving you alone with a scar which is hard to erase.


"Why didn't you ask her to come? It's Xmas party, the more the merrier" "No need to do that. We are different anyway. She would not come" - and this came from my "best friend" whom I've been close to for almost the time I've been here. Sad, isn't it?



This must be nth time I've encountered with. Always, those I treat with all my heart will someday pay me back with something like this . It really hurts...



I only have 4 months to remain in Sydney. Looking back at the last 5 years, I don't really know what I've gained and what I've lost. Though I really think by the time I leave Sydney, there will be no one at the airport to see me off, a part of me still doesn't want that to happen. I always believe if you treat someone nicely, they will return the favour by treating you well and together, everyone is nice towards each other. However, up till now, all I see with my own eyes and ears are disappointments and painful experiences.... Perhaps, there really is something wrong within my personality or else for them to treat me like that...



Maybe, in the end, I will leave Sydney all alone again, just like 5 years ago. Let's just be positive for once ^^: I don't have to cry if that happens, right?

[melp]

Everyone has at least a secret

I am not exception.

A secret I kept from my family for more than 3 years. They will be shocked when they find out.

I can not say I have no regret when making the choice in 2006. Almost 3 years have passed and here I am with no fortune,

But I am on my own. This is the life I chose and however difficult it is, I take all the consequences.

Mom, dad, I am your youngest child. But it does not mean I am a child. One day, you will understand how I went through all of this just to prove to you how I can be fine by myself.

One day....

[melp]

It has been a while.

Life changes when people change.

I was afraid of changing. Change is unavoidable, it is just that we tried to fool ourself, thinking that we may die when this happens. Well, we won't die because of this. None of us will.

It is easy to say: "Hey, I will never change. I can't imagine how it happen". OK, but when you change, you look back and you realize changes are easier than you thought it could be.

I was like that. I was so afraid of changing. For two years, my life revolves around them. I did not think I could live without thinking about them everyday.

Changes happen so fast. It took only a second. A second earlier and a second after that, I look at the same people, the same situation with different view, different feeling. First I felt guilty. Then I feel it is natural.

The passion for music is still there. But life has more important things to achieve. A lot more responsibilities to take. And a lot more exciting things to learn, to embrace. Let's go on and experience them all.

If something really belongs to you, it will come back to you no matter how long it takes, no matter how far it is. It's fate. If it doesn't, it never will.

So I am waiting if the old feeling really returns. I am waiting for this day to come

[hienqv]

can i join in ?(haha ,yes by myself )

i don't know what i'm feeling now...
everything are so strange ,i can't expect what will coming next.
Once in a life time ,i'd thought about the death .It seem like yesterday ,my head still hurt because of it .
However ,everything are alright now .I feel happy with my new life,lucky with my big family and thankful for everything i have now .
Don't look back ,just walk forward and see what will come... I'm a strong girl !
fighting !

[melp]

Today I saw them again in Heroine 5.

Ricsung couple ^_^ Crazily competitive crab and an equally 3-D leader.

I smiled happily. Like the feeling has never gone

Come back safely, guys. Really look forward to that day.

P/S: How come I got spam email about virus everytime I logged in? Really frustrating

[melp]

Fame

What is it? When looks are over, when age comes close to your door, even when you die...

I watched Love Letter with Shinhwa today. And unconsciously, I found myself listening to vol 9. Even though my original intention was hearing Sungie, I was teary while listening Destiny of Love, Once more time

They are not like before. Older, slower, less active.

So what.

What they left behind are important to a lot of people. At least they matter to real Shinhwachango. The type of songs that touch your heart even though you thought the beating was way over. The types of guys that made you laugh like you did 2 years ago. The guys who you loves for who they truly are.

Seoul, here I come. I will wait for that fateful day.

Once a fan, always a fan